Friday, November 2, 2018

I guess, quarter life crisis is a real shit now.

Now that i reach the age of 25 - the quarter life, everything about quarter life crisis seems relateable.


Yes. That crisis that makes you confuse about your life. Like who are you, where is your place in the society, why my life so miserable, why am i so poor, etc. Confuse if what i am doing right now is actually the right thing and is it really something worth my time?


I think quarter life crisis is actually worst than teenager puberty, where they usually seeking about their true shelves.
Like, Nope.
Teenager still have no idea about life. They just confusing what trend they should follow, idols, copying friends, etc.


I start to think my time is running out. Why am i 25 already??? Damn. I don't have "real job" that that really paid me.
Meanwhile before, when i was student, i realize working life will be hard, but the reality is harder: i can't even get a job!!

I start to think, i'm useless. Why no company want me? Is it supposed to be this hard to get a proper office job? Am i really that bad?
I know getting job isn't about your academic score (which is i'm a lil bit proud of), but am i really that bad for work? Communication? People who communicate worst than me, found a proper job.
I don't understand...

My time is running out, i'm getting old, yet i don't have anything.
Yes, it does. I really think i don't have anything to survive my life.
All of these that i do right now, is it really will help me to live a life till forever?

I don't have skill, experience, friends, boss, co-worker, etc that most of my friend naturally having at this age.
I'm just getting older uselessly.

I don't have friend to hangout with - which i would get if i have a job.
I don't have skills & experience - which very useful, if only i have a real job, at least i can be expert at one thing. In case i have to life outside Bali, few years from now, i have skills to get a job.

Age 25.
No skills. No job. No money.
Me.